Saturday, October 07, 2006 @7:30 AM
i feel like im just floating in and out of existence today. living very numbly. just walking around and doing things. and also walking around and doing nothing. read the entire set of Straits Times today. first time i've done that. even studied the orbituaries. was qt sad to see a few young faces there. seeing the orbituaries made me sad. it got me thinking abt how precious life was, how everyone is loved by somebody. and how sad it is if nobody were to love you. each person is only given one chance to live life. and to lose it at such a young age is such a pity. this lady, so young, left her husband, her children. such tragedy..got me thinking abt how ppl always take things for granted too. everyone says they nv take things for granted, or that they try not to take things for granted. but the fact is, everyone does that at some point in time. no matter how careful you are, a person is bound to commit this sin. its too difficult to truly count your blessings and not take things for granted, esp for simple everyday things. you will only start missing things after they're gone.
Havent spoken to her since ytd. im missing her a great deal..but i dont even know if she wanna speak to me. im not sure what to say to her too. im too ashamed to say anything. i wish i cld forget what happened. i wished it didnt happen. there's nth much for me to say to explain myself as well i guess, cos you're right my dear.
leave a light on for me
